Another 4 hour sleep day .Mostly because of the dreams .Today's dream started with my old friend and co-founder of the robot group David Santos showing up at the house and after some vague interchange we end up in the back yard with him setting up camp and some sort of chemical expierament involving test tubes and fire .As I walk around in back I lament about the fact that I no longer own the property my house is on .Rick ,the guy I lost it to by trusting him to give me the same rent to own arrangment I gave him when he lost his lot next door ,is standing back there and stairing at Dave ,who for some reason is handing Rick's little girl one of the test tubes filled with some black goo-like residue .I grab it from her but Dave starts throwing lit matches into the dry waist high weeds I stomp out the fires and grab Dave by the throat and force him to stop .Some how I am distracted by an outcropping of stones nearby that resemble a long lost city buried in the weeds .I climb onto a large cement wall to get a better view and Rick follows .As we reach the top about 40 feet up the wall starts to sway and buckle .Rick ,being about twice my size ,pulls it to his side but I manage to pull it back so he's not crushed ( as much as I disslike him at this point I still don't want him dead) but the wall starts to fall back in my direction and we are trapped there in some deadly balancing act while we yell at Dave to get a ladder .Dave is being stubborn and demanding an appology first and the whole thing starts to crumble ...............I wake up !Cold sweats and heart pounding .
I have a good sized stack of these dreams written on post-its in a folder that holds the life story draft I've been working on for about 2 years now .Most of them about the land and the struggle to regain control of my life .Some of them have me moving out to some island outside the US where I'm fighting off invaiders or the US militairy .I'm having this inner battle with my feelings about the war and need for defense .I attribute some of this to the fact of the current world situation and the fact that I just finished reading Bruce Sterlings new book ,Tommorrow Now
Bruce is one of the few writers I can realate to because he really gets it .Much of this book is stuff ( the cool future inventions part ) I've been trying to make happen all my life .If I had millions of bucks my ultimate goal would be to create this 24 hour mall city where great minds can come and live and create all the cool stuff to make the world a better place .It would have 24 hour health food ,day care ,health care ,car care ,libraries ,labs ,art and music studios and clubs .
OK ,back to the real world .Today's agenda :Working off debt projects .Tom's house to pay off the loan for my electric bill ,Bill's house to pay off the rebuilding of this computer ,stop by the design center to discuss the design for the staircase to pay off last night's loan and if I can scrape up another $40 bucks by 5:00 I can get a booth at the monthly art fest on south congress and make some get ahead money by selling my most profitable work that I've already finished .The metal bras .
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